Hi everyone! These maxi rompers are definitely still a love for me. They’re fun and flirty but you also have that casual feel because of the romper style fit. I actually got this from a friend of mine who said it would work perfectly with my style and I’m in love!! Thanks for all your support, Nelyn! <3 <3
You could easily wear this to a fall wedding, a party or a night out on the town! I found some similar items below, see the links! Happy summering <3
ever since i got back from my thanksgiving trip in seattle, i’ve been in a bit of a funk. i couldn’t help but notice that i was feeling out of my element and while everything had remained the same, there was this running theme i felt all week long. i’ve been trying to process through the emotions and i’m realizing it’s multi-layered.
i think part of it is because the reality of moving is sinking in… knowing that my life is going to completely change very soon with hoan moving down and then moving up to seattle, getting married and wanting to plan a life around two cities is right around the corner. all of that is just a lot to take in. and while i’ve always enjoyed the option of having more, i’m feeling the nostalgia of resistance from 2 years ago when i first moved to LA resurfacing with this next move.
the other things i kept noticing was feelings of inadequacy, the inability to be myself, fear of judgment and this internal struggle of believing people expected something of me, trying to live up to it but knowing it wasn’t me. with these emotions hitting me all at once, i realized all i could do was numb, do my best to freeze. it’s all so foreign to me feeling like this… never in my life have i felt not enough… not myself or felt fearful of what others thought of me. these were never beliefs that consumed my being and all of a sudden, it was all i could think about. it’s been really paralyzing and i think i’m still trying to wake up from this trance…
i feel like each time i’ve come home since moving to LA has been so different. I went from feeling a little remorseful and homesick about my move to not knowing where i fit in at home or LA and I think I can say I’m finally at a place where i feel a lot of peace and gratitude with my decision to move.
it wasn’t an easy journey to get here because i had to numb all of my negative emotions in order to accept that LA was reality. i was emotionally unavailable to everyone including myself and i think it was hardest on those who loved me most. looking back now, those were some of the darkest days of my life, not necessarily in the amount of emotion but rather in the extent of loneliness.
as time has gone on though, i’ve slowly been able to break through the layers of regret and denial and am finally able to regain positive perspective and the colors of life. as my time winds down here in LA, i’m unsure what i want to get out of these next few months but i feel like yes man will become a mantra.. literally saying yes to any opportunity i might get to try… seek, do, experience in all senses of the word.