i feel like each time i’ve come home since moving to LA has been so different. I went from feeling a little remorseful and homesick about my move to not knowing where i fit in at home or LA and I think I can say I’m finally at a place where i feel a lot of peace and gratitude with my decision to move.
it wasn’t an easy journey to get here because i had to numb all of my negative emotions in order to accept that LA was reality. i was emotionally unavailable to everyone including myself and i think it was hardest on those who loved me most. looking back now, those were some of the darkest days of my life, not necessarily in the amount of emotion but rather in the extent of loneliness.
as time has gone on though, i’ve slowly been able to break through the layers of regret and denial and am finally able to regain positive perspective and the colors of life. as my time winds down here in LA, i’m unsure what i want to get out of these next few months but i feel like yes man will become a mantra.. literally saying yes to any opportunity i might get to try… seek, do, experience in all senses of the word.